Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Like a Kid Again

Last weekend we had Christmas with my mom's side of the family. We did a white elephant gift exchange to have some fun. I was at Target and got a nerf gun, I thought it'd be a big hit, but it really wasn't except with Kyle and I. We had a blast with it, my mom started to join in too and we were laughing so hard at times. My cousin actually won the gift, but we played with it ;) Kyle kept saying I can't believe you bought this for a white elephant but not for me.

So on Monday I had to go out and grab a few things... along with that was 2 nerf guns for my husband and I. I was going to wait awhile to bring them out, but Kyle has been really busy at work and this was the first time all week we could sit down and talk. Instead of talking, we had an all out NERF WAR!!!! :) :)  We were laughing, running around, hiding in and behind things. This went on for a good 20 minutes. We had a BLAST! Needless to say, this was the best gift I bought for him and we are having so much fun with it.

We are longing for our kiddos, but we are enjoying the little things in life right now. God is good!

Lots of Love,
The Nerf Champ Chaffee's ;)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Blessed in 2011

Good morning friends!
I'm really not a morning person at all, but I was able to sleep in a little today, okay like an extra 20 min, but still it felt so good. :) Anyway, before I head off to work for this week, which is a full week of work, (whoa) I thought I'd update real quick.

Last year when we sent out our Christmas cards we wrote a note about our year and we sent it with our picture to lots of family and friends. As Christmas was approaching, Kyle and I thought we would skip out on the letter this year, because well it wasn't a great year for us. I completely agreed with this, but then I started thinking about all the ups we had this year too. So I'm going to just write about how blessed we were really are even though it wasn't our best year.

Sadly, we lost 2 grandmothers this year... With Grandma Chaffee we were not expecting it at all, and it was a big shock to everyone. She had been doing so well, looking great and sounding great. It was such a sad Easter last year, but for the first time in probably a long time, all the Chaffee's were together. One of Kyle's uncle and aunt live in Florida, and I actually had never met them, so they came up of course. It was a blessing being together as a family, even though a key component was missing, Grandma. But I know with everything in my heart Grandma was looking down from heaven and was smiling so big to see all of her kids, their spouses, her grandchildren, and her great grandchildren together again. It is still hard for many of us at times, but the Chaffee's still get together and I know that's something Grandma instilled in all of her children.  Blessed.
With Grandma Ramseyer ( my step dad's mom) we sadly knew the end was coming. It was hard, but we were able to say our goodbyes and spend our last moments with her. She was such a giving person, with such a big heart. She and her husband knew so many people and they were all touched by their gratitude and their selflessness. Something we all need more of. What great role models to their families. We all have so many fond memories of Grandma and she will be missed everyday, but we are all better people because of her. Blessed.

In 2011 we really wanted to expand our family and get pregnant like everyone else does. It seemed easy, but as time went on I knew something wasn't right. After many people telling me I just needed to relax, and I know I did need to, I went to the Dr. There were lots of visits, and I ended up with 2 surgeries and news that I would probably never be able to conceive. Talk about a rough year... but, if those doors weren't shut like that we wouldn't have started our process of adopting so soon. We always knew we wanted to adopt, but wanted to wait a little while. I couldn't be more excited about going down this path, and I think of our children every single day. Some days are hard, I lose patience, and I get sad that we don't know them yet, but in God's timing we will and we cannot wait!!! BLESSED.

Kyle and I both have great jobs. He works with some absolutely amazing role models. They are all upstanding men who work hard, have strong families, and a lot of them are Christians. What a blessing that is, to work in such an environment when most places and people are the opposite. He gets treated well and has good relationships with many people in his office. I am loving my job too, the kiddos are wonderful. They keep me laughing all the time, they are quirky, funny, and so loving. It is a very tiring job and sometimes frustrating, but my goodness I couldn't imagine not knowing those kiddos. Blessed.

We absolutely love our house. We have been so blessed to be able to keep up with everything that goes on with it, dream up new ideas for our home, and just be content. It's a quaint little cottage looking home, but we couldn't ask for a better place to call home. We also have thee best neighbors. It's amazing how God works that out even if we aren't thinking about it. They are actually going through a lot of the same stuff we are, so we have cried together, had serious conversations, but most of all we laugh together. Blessed.

Lastly, we have the most wonderful supportive family we could have ever dreamed of. I really struggled with the thought of letting down my parents, and Kyle's by not being able to give them a blood related grandchild. I'm sure they all dreamed of it, and I know I did, but no one has said anything about being disappointed. They all say the opposite actually, which is such a freeing feeling. We are so glad that they are all on board, they are just as excited as we are, and that they pray for our future children. Thank you so much! Blessed.

We are blessed in so many other ways, but I don't want to bore you or make this book much longer. Friends, we have rough days, months, and even years, but try to look between the lines and see those blessings. Sometimes looking for those things is harder than getting out of bed in the morning, but when you look for them God will reveal them to you. I have to remind myself of this everyday, because it's not easy and I am by no means great at this. Looking back at 2011 though, I am able to find those blessings, because God has brought me to a new place. :) BLESSED.