It is so crazy to think that this time last year, I was getting ready
for my 2nd surgery in 3 months. I had no idea what would be in store and
what my Dr. would actually find during surgery. Granted I knew I was
having surgery to remove 2 cysts on my ovary, but I wasn't prepared for
what she would tell me after surgery. Kyle and I were on our way down
the adoption road by this point and our entire dossier was done and we
were on the waiting list. But, I still wondered if there was some hope
that we could still get pregnant though. After my follow up appointment,
I knew my thoughts should start to change.
I won't lie, it was a hard time for me. You never expect the Dr. to tell you how difficult and practically impossible it will be to carry let alone conceive a child. There were some really hard days in the months following. The more we watched ourselves climb up higher and higher on the wait list, it started making things easier. During this time, I had a ton of people message me on Facebook and ask me questions about adoption. There were people from my childhood, people from high school, and just other random people that knew about our story. That was a reminder that God had called both of us into something bigger than ourselves. Something that He was going to use both of us and especially use to heal me.
God was healing me in all of those moments, and even though I didn't always see it in the moment, I can look back now and totally see it. As the year went on, I could tell God had healed my heart about carrying a child of my own. I was now just carrying my child in my heart and that's all that mattered. I am still carrying my child in my heart right now, but I cannot wait to see who God is giving me to be my daughter. He will build our family in such a beautiful way. It's going to be very different than most, but that's why God called us to do so. We have the support of an army and the love of God through so many people.
I want to say thank you to everyone who reads, our family, and our friends. You have all helped heal me in ways you may never know. Without your questions, without your positive feedback, and without your support I wouldn't be where I am today. You have all helped me grow into the soon to be mother and woman that I am today. Thank you so much and what a difference a year makes!!! :)
This time last year we were # 22 on the toddler girl list, now, we are #1!! What?! How amazing is God?
I won't lie, it was a hard time for me. You never expect the Dr. to tell you how difficult and practically impossible it will be to carry let alone conceive a child. There were some really hard days in the months following. The more we watched ourselves climb up higher and higher on the wait list, it started making things easier. During this time, I had a ton of people message me on Facebook and ask me questions about adoption. There were people from my childhood, people from high school, and just other random people that knew about our story. That was a reminder that God had called both of us into something bigger than ourselves. Something that He was going to use both of us and especially use to heal me.
God was healing me in all of those moments, and even though I didn't always see it in the moment, I can look back now and totally see it. As the year went on, I could tell God had healed my heart about carrying a child of my own. I was now just carrying my child in my heart and that's all that mattered. I am still carrying my child in my heart right now, but I cannot wait to see who God is giving me to be my daughter. He will build our family in such a beautiful way. It's going to be very different than most, but that's why God called us to do so. We have the support of an army and the love of God through so many people.
I want to say thank you to everyone who reads, our family, and our friends. You have all helped heal me in ways you may never know. Without your questions, without your positive feedback, and without your support I wouldn't be where I am today. You have all helped me grow into the soon to be mother and woman that I am today. Thank you so much and what a difference a year makes!!! :)
This time last year we were # 22 on the toddler girl list, now, we are #1!! What?! How amazing is God?
