Last year around Mother's Day was just another reminder that I wasn't yet a mother... It seemed like it wasn't ever going to happen, at least not the way we were planning it to happen. At that point though, I had no idea what God was planning and what He had in store for the upcoming year.
I'm sure many of you would say I'm not a mom yet, and I guess in a way it's true. I don't have my children here with me everyday, I'm not taking care of them yet, and they aren't even on US soil. I would have a different opinion though. I am a mother, no I'm not going to be getting cute little handmade presents from my children, and I won't be celebrated like all the other mother's right now, but I am a mom to 2 beautiful children. I pray for them all the time, I think about them all the time, I dream about their lives, and I am constantly wondering where they are while I wait for them to be mine. I am a mother to 2 children who I don't even know yet, and they don't know me. I pray that they know someone is on their way to becoming their mommy and someone who is going to love them so so much and never let go, and always take care of them.
There are often times when I make up these fairy tales of what life is going to be like when we bring our children home, and I have created one even for Mother's Day. It is just a special day that I get to spend with my kids, and they make me things, and they tell me how much they love me. This is fun for me, but I don't want to dream anymore, and I hope I don't create these stories that don't happen the way I invision... I hope they turn out just the way they are supposed to, perfectly. Having our children home and with me will be enough of a Mother's Day present next year, I won't care about the little gifts or my special day. Everyday is going to be a special day with having those children safe in our arms. I hope we tell each other everyday how much we love each other, I hope we play together everyday, and I hope we make everyday special in some way. I want to celebrate their lives and our family not just on Mother's Day, but everyday.
I am excited to celebrate all the mommies out there tomorrow, and I am so thankful for all the moms who have had an impact on me. I truly hope I can impact my children and even their friends the same way.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
