This past weekend at church a new series has started, and its called Keep Calm and Carry On. Each week it focuses on something different, and this past week was about Failure.
Failure is something that I'm going to assume everyone struggles with. I know I do for sure. It's one of those things that can overtake some days, or seasons of my life. I remember when we were trying to get pregnant, I felt like a failure. Like I was letting down Kyle, my family, his family, and myself. Wasn't that what a woman was made for, to have a pregnancy and be a mom? When I couldn't do that, in my eyes I was failing. God had different plans of course.
Even after bringing Zola home I felt like a failure at times. Like, when I would lose my patience, or the fact that we didn't bring home more children. Or, that the house wasn't perfectly clean and I didn't have an organic meal on the table when Kyle got home. Mom guilt at it's finest.
This past January I was at our annual Noonday Collection conference, SHINE. It was an amazing time! I learned so much and gained so many friends. One of our artisan partners from India was there, Moon. She got up to speak to over 300 people in a room, she had so much confidence it radiated off of her. It was amazing, she was so proud of the work she has done, and the difference she has made in lives of women in India, because of Noonday. Not for one second did I think she doubted her abilities and her calling.
I want to be more like that. I want to know that even when I do fail, it's okay. I want to walk with pride in who God has made me and what He has called me to do right now. Not what I think I should be doing, or what other people think I should be doing, but what He knows I should be doing, now.
Failure is something that I'm going to assume everyone struggles with. I know I do for sure. It's one of those things that can overtake some days, or seasons of my life. I remember when we were trying to get pregnant, I felt like a failure. Like I was letting down Kyle, my family, his family, and myself. Wasn't that what a woman was made for, to have a pregnancy and be a mom? When I couldn't do that, in my eyes I was failing. God had different plans of course.
Even after bringing Zola home I felt like a failure at times. Like, when I would lose my patience, or the fact that we didn't bring home more children. Or, that the house wasn't perfectly clean and I didn't have an organic meal on the table when Kyle got home. Mom guilt at it's finest.
This past January I was at our annual Noonday Collection conference, SHINE. It was an amazing time! I learned so much and gained so many friends. One of our artisan partners from India was there, Moon. She got up to speak to over 300 people in a room, she had so much confidence it radiated off of her. It was amazing, she was so proud of the work she has done, and the difference she has made in lives of women in India, because of Noonday. Not for one second did I think she doubted her abilities and her calling.
I want to be more like that. I want to know that even when I do fail, it's okay. I want to walk with pride in who God has made me and what He has called me to do right now. Not what I think I should be doing, or what other people think I should be doing, but what He knows I should be doing, now.
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