Rollercoaster of Waiting

Just a quick update to let you know that we are still waiting. I know there hasn't been a lot of exciting news, and believe me when I say it's 100 times more disappointing for us.

A lot of people say that life is like a roller coaster. You have ups, downs, and just plain plateaus. You go to highschool, then you have to decide what you want to do forever, then you go to college, yay! Then you're done and all your friends move away and you have to find a job, then you find a job, yay!! Then people worry about being single, then you meet the one, yay!! You wait to get married, then the day happens, yay!! You spend time together then have kids, yay that was easy!! It goes on and on for the rest of your life. There are times when you want to talk about all of it, and there are times you don't want to talk about any of it.

That is the point that Kyle and I are getting to. Adoption is like a roller coaster as well, and we knew that going into to, but it doesn't make it any easier. After getting on the list, we were so excited, then we would plateau for awhile, until there was another referral and we would move up a spot. Once we got to the top of the list, we were so so excited!! We had heard that it wouldn't be out of the question to think we could have a referral by Christmas. So, as we decorated this year for Christmas we were just so excited and it felt like cloud 9. Thinking we were decorating this year for the reveal of our daughter was so exciting.

After talking to our caseworker yesterday, she can't give a lot of information and I understand why, but she said she really has no idea and she is crossing her fingers. Lets just say we are now at another plateau and it is so discouraging. It really took the Christmas spirit out of both of us last night. As we were praying last night, I prayed specifically for us to remember what the Christmas season was about, about the birth of our King, and the fact that we get to adopt and that were called to adopt. As Christmas is approaching we are doing our best not to think about our adoption right now. We want to be busy with our jobs, our family, and the true meaning of Christmas. So, with that, ask us how life is going, or our jobs or funny stories about our nephews. We are still waiting and we will definitely fill you all in when more news comes up. We both want to think about the good and the excitement of life, not the reminder that we are still waiting for our precious daughter.

On another quick note, I'm starting a new job today at our church. I will be the Early Childhood Director. I am looking forward to jumping in and being so immersed in learning how to do this job, that I soon put our adoption on the back burner for now. I am becoming consumed with checking my email and having my phone with me at all times, so this is a good feeling today to start something new! :)

Have a happy Tuesday friends and here's another nice note... We chose a name!! It's not final yet because we don't know what her name will be to make her middle name, but the name we chose means peaceful. What a great feeling that she has a name in our hearts and in our mind. :)