Last year around Mother's Day was just another reminder that I wasn't yet a mother... It seemed like it wasn't ever going to happen, at least not the way we were planning it to happen. At that point though, I had no idea what God was planning and what He had in store for the upcoming year.
I'm sure many of you would say I'm not a mom yet, and I guess in a way it's true. I don't have my children here with me everyday, I'm not taking care of them yet, and they aren't even on US soil. I would have a different opinion though. I am a mother, no I'm not going to be getting cute little handmade presents from my children, and I won't be celebrated like all the other mother's right now, but I am a mom to 2 beautiful children. I pray for them all the time, I think about them all the time, I dream about their lives, and I am constantly wondering where they are while I wait for them to be mine. I am a mother to 2 children who I don't even know yet, and they don't know me. I pray that they know someone is on their way to becoming their mommy and someone who is going to love them so so much and never let go, and always take care of them.
There are often times when I make up these fairy tales of what life is going to be like when we bring our children home, and I have created one even for Mother's Day. It is just a special day that I get to spend with my kids, and they make me things, and they tell me how much they love me. This is fun for me, but I don't want to dream anymore, and I hope I don't create these stories that don't happen the way I invision... I hope they turn out just the way they are supposed to, perfectly. Having our children home and with me will be enough of a Mother's Day present next year, I won't care about the little gifts or my special day. Everyday is going to be a special day with having those children safe in our arms. I hope we tell each other everyday how much we love each other, I hope we play together everyday, and I hope we make everyday special in some way. I want to celebrate their lives and our family not just on Mother's Day, but everyday.
I am excited to celebrate all the mommies out there tomorrow, and I am so thankful for all the moms who have had an impact on me. I truly hope I can impact my children and even their friends the same way.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Passion
Well since there isn't always a lot to update on about our babies, I thought I could just update and give a little insight on what's going on while we wait :)
We have moved up a couple spots on our lists, but not a whole lot... Things are moving pretty slow over there right now. The Southern Region has pretty much been given up on, but there can always be hope and prayer for that to open up, because there are a lot of kiddos that need some mommies and daddies. Someone from our agency is going to ET sometime this week probably, to make sure things are going smoothly and as quickly as possible on their side. There are some kids in one of the orphanages, but they don't have their paperwork yet... moving on Africa time is what I'm presuming is going on. So hopefully everything will get worked out there and we can see some movement on that list!! :)
On to what's been going on. We are teaching a class at our church on Thursday's at 6:30 based upon a book called Orphanology. It went well last week, and we are hoping for the same tonight. There have been good conversations and I'm so proud of Kyle for being open to this and being a total rockstar last week. On May 18th, there is an adoption seminar at a church around the area in Zionsville, and we are going to that. I'm so so excited to go and meet some families, and learn more about what our life could and will be like. Our neighbor is also going, so we are looking forward to that as well. :)
That kind of stuff just gets me excited, I want to go to every conference, every state just to meet people and their families, anything to be involved in this world we are going to be in. I've been really trying to find out what my passion is lately. My number one passion is to be a mommy and be a good one. I feel like that's what God has made me to be. But... I can't do that right now. Not yet anyway, so I'm searching who I am and what I'm supposed to be and be doing. I love dreaming and dreaming big, but it sure can be scary at times. I want to learn how to rely on God and listen to Him and what He is telling me to do. I'm hoping and praying that God reveals to me what I'm supposed to be doing while I wait for my babies.
I'm often jealous of Kyle because he is such a natural at what he does, and he is so incredibly talented in what he does. Now, don't get any ideas in asking what exactly he does, because I can't explain it, but I do know he is amazing at it, and his co-workers and even his CEO think very highly of him. They are honored to be working with him. I love where he works too... almost all the men there are Christians, they have great families, and are just such a blessing to be around. I'm so beyond proud of my husband and all that he does for our family now and our family to be. He plans and provides in ways I never could.
As I start down this new journey I hope I learn a lot about what's around me, the people around me, and especially who I am. I know God has wired me to be who I am, I just need to find my place.
We have moved up a couple spots on our lists, but not a whole lot... Things are moving pretty slow over there right now. The Southern Region has pretty much been given up on, but there can always be hope and prayer for that to open up, because there are a lot of kiddos that need some mommies and daddies. Someone from our agency is going to ET sometime this week probably, to make sure things are going smoothly and as quickly as possible on their side. There are some kids in one of the orphanages, but they don't have their paperwork yet... moving on Africa time is what I'm presuming is going on. So hopefully everything will get worked out there and we can see some movement on that list!! :)
On to what's been going on. We are teaching a class at our church on Thursday's at 6:30 based upon a book called Orphanology. It went well last week, and we are hoping for the same tonight. There have been good conversations and I'm so proud of Kyle for being open to this and being a total rockstar last week. On May 18th, there is an adoption seminar at a church around the area in Zionsville, and we are going to that. I'm so so excited to go and meet some families, and learn more about what our life could and will be like. Our neighbor is also going, so we are looking forward to that as well. :)
That kind of stuff just gets me excited, I want to go to every conference, every state just to meet people and their families, anything to be involved in this world we are going to be in. I've been really trying to find out what my passion is lately. My number one passion is to be a mommy and be a good one. I feel like that's what God has made me to be. But... I can't do that right now. Not yet anyway, so I'm searching who I am and what I'm supposed to be and be doing. I love dreaming and dreaming big, but it sure can be scary at times. I want to learn how to rely on God and listen to Him and what He is telling me to do. I'm hoping and praying that God reveals to me what I'm supposed to be doing while I wait for my babies.
I'm often jealous of Kyle because he is such a natural at what he does, and he is so incredibly talented in what he does. Now, don't get any ideas in asking what exactly he does, because I can't explain it, but I do know he is amazing at it, and his co-workers and even his CEO think very highly of him. They are honored to be working with him. I love where he works too... almost all the men there are Christians, they have great families, and are just such a blessing to be around. I'm so beyond proud of my husband and all that he does for our family now and our family to be. He plans and provides in ways I never could.
As I start down this new journey I hope I learn a lot about what's around me, the people around me, and especially who I am. I know God has wired me to be who I am, I just need to find my place.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Spicing it Up
Not a whole lot to be updating on, but just thought I'd throw something out.
I decided to spice up my page a bit and added a couple things. I was feeling a little smart and thought I'd try to some things out. I changed up the color and the font and placed things in different places. Hopefully things will be easier to see and find. I added a button to my Etsy site. I don't know if I really told anyone but after we did our fundraising with Ordinary Hero I sent a picture of the thank you's I made to one of the girls who I had been in contact with. She had asked me to make 300 cards and donate them to the OH store. I made 100 Africa themed Thank You's, 100 China themed Thank You's and 100 generic Thank You's. They are actually featured this week in the store for the OH Grant Contest going on right now. If you want to pop over there and purchase any, don't forget to choose my name on the drop down box under affiliate. If you want wait, that'd be great too!! We opened up my Etsy site and those cards and many others will be on the site and ready for you to buy soon. :) All the proceeds will be going straight to our adoption account. I also added a donate button if anyone feels led to do so.
As Kyle and I have gone down this road, we have wanted to do many things to encourage other people to adopt and just make people more aware of what's going on around us. We have thought about ideas, but never really settled on anything. Today at church one of our pastors who actually adopted 4 out of the 5 of his children was open to talk to us. I told him I've been reading a book called Orphanology and there was a Bible Study/Small Group Study to go along with it. They have something at our church called Northview University with different types of classes, and he asked us to pray about leading a class in about 5 weeks. We will be praying and researching and see what God calls us to do with this opportunity. :)
Kyle and I have also envisioned the type of family we see for some reason. We always saw a baby boy and a toddler girl. Now, we always say, if we were pregnant we wouldn't get to choose which gender. I also really wanted to have a gender reveal party and make it so much fun. However we have made the choice to bring home one of each. So, we are planning for a boy and a girl. :) We are so excited, and we still don't know for sure what the ages will be, but we are pretty sure it will be baby boy and toddler girl. We are very thrilled and will still probably throw some kind of gender party just for fun.
Some prayer requests:
For the Southern Region to open up soon.
For direction in our church and leading the class I talked earlier about.
To be chosen for a fundraising and grant we are applying for.
Most importantly for our children and their mothers. The infant is probably not born yet, and possibly not even conceived, so just for healthiness of the mother and peace for our children. We pray for this every night before we go to bed, but I'd love for others to jump on too. :)
Happy 23 hour day friends!! ;)
I decided to spice up my page a bit and added a couple things. I was feeling a little smart and thought I'd try to some things out. I changed up the color and the font and placed things in different places. Hopefully things will be easier to see and find. I added a button to my Etsy site. I don't know if I really told anyone but after we did our fundraising with Ordinary Hero I sent a picture of the thank you's I made to one of the girls who I had been in contact with. She had asked me to make 300 cards and donate them to the OH store. I made 100 Africa themed Thank You's, 100 China themed Thank You's and 100 generic Thank You's. They are actually featured this week in the store for the OH Grant Contest going on right now. If you want to pop over there and purchase any, don't forget to choose my name on the drop down box under affiliate. If you want wait, that'd be great too!! We opened up my Etsy site and those cards and many others will be on the site and ready for you to buy soon. :) All the proceeds will be going straight to our adoption account. I also added a donate button if anyone feels led to do so.
As Kyle and I have gone down this road, we have wanted to do many things to encourage other people to adopt and just make people more aware of what's going on around us. We have thought about ideas, but never really settled on anything. Today at church one of our pastors who actually adopted 4 out of the 5 of his children was open to talk to us. I told him I've been reading a book called Orphanology and there was a Bible Study/Small Group Study to go along with it. They have something at our church called Northview University with different types of classes, and he asked us to pray about leading a class in about 5 weeks. We will be praying and researching and see what God calls us to do with this opportunity. :)
Kyle and I have also envisioned the type of family we see for some reason. We always saw a baby boy and a toddler girl. Now, we always say, if we were pregnant we wouldn't get to choose which gender. I also really wanted to have a gender reveal party and make it so much fun. However we have made the choice to bring home one of each. So, we are planning for a boy and a girl. :) We are so excited, and we still don't know for sure what the ages will be, but we are pretty sure it will be baby boy and toddler girl. We are very thrilled and will still probably throw some kind of gender party just for fun.
Some prayer requests:
For the Southern Region to open up soon.
For direction in our church and leading the class I talked earlier about.
To be chosen for a fundraising and grant we are applying for.
Most importantly for our children and their mothers. The infant is probably not born yet, and possibly not even conceived, so just for healthiness of the mother and peace for our children. We pray for this every night before we go to bed, but I'd love for others to jump on too. :)
Happy 23 hour day friends!! ;)
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Finishing Touches
Everything with the USCIS takes awhile, but we are pleased to say that we were accepted to adopt and bring home to the US 2 orphans from Africa. YAY!!! :)
We need to get the paper notarized and then Kyle will take it downtown to have the State Seal put on it, then it is sent away to CO. It will finally be complete as a whole.
IAN is wonderful and will let families be on the waiting list while they are finishing up the paperwork for the USCIS. It takes such a long time sometimes, that it could really set you back in time as to when you would get on the waiting list. Since the waiting list is pretty long as well, they don't worry about you getting a referral before having all the paperwork for USCIS done. Thank you IAN. :)
In other big news, Ethiopia has 3 locations of their orphanages, Northern, Western, and Southern. Right before Christmas the Southern region had put a hold on their adoptions and referrals, because they were unable to handle all the paperwork. Now, all the regions are run by different people, I guess to me I think of it as each state has a governor, and that's how the regions in ET are as well. So, IAN is still supporting the kids in the orphanage but we are still without answers if and when it will open back up. The other part that stinks beyond the fact that there are children there waiting to be adopted, is that a large number of the children came from the Southern Region. With that, it is making the wait time even longer. We will be looking at another year to 18 months probably before getting our referral or our match. We continue to pray everyday for our children, and their safety. I think we should also be praying for the Southern Region with those children as well, and praying that the Southern Region opens soon. If that were the case, the movement would be a lot on the list and so many families would get their children home a lot sooner and to a loving and safe place. Please join us in prayer for those things.
We are pretty certain what genders we will be getting by where we are on the list, so its great for planning, but also not great because now all I want to do is shop!! Haha, but like Kyle says, things will change and I'm going to want something different in a year or so. I have to hold back and wait, so I'm doing my best...
Other than the things above there isn't a whole lot going on with the adoption stuff. It's a slow and steady waiting game. We get excited about the referrals coming through though and watching ourselves move up the list. Its the little things that keep us going. :)
We need to get the paper notarized and then Kyle will take it downtown to have the State Seal put on it, then it is sent away to CO. It will finally be complete as a whole.
IAN is wonderful and will let families be on the waiting list while they are finishing up the paperwork for the USCIS. It takes such a long time sometimes, that it could really set you back in time as to when you would get on the waiting list. Since the waiting list is pretty long as well, they don't worry about you getting a referral before having all the paperwork for USCIS done. Thank you IAN. :)
In other big news, Ethiopia has 3 locations of their orphanages, Northern, Western, and Southern. Right before Christmas the Southern region had put a hold on their adoptions and referrals, because they were unable to handle all the paperwork. Now, all the regions are run by different people, I guess to me I think of it as each state has a governor, and that's how the regions in ET are as well. So, IAN is still supporting the kids in the orphanage but we are still without answers if and when it will open back up. The other part that stinks beyond the fact that there are children there waiting to be adopted, is that a large number of the children came from the Southern Region. With that, it is making the wait time even longer. We will be looking at another year to 18 months probably before getting our referral or our match. We continue to pray everyday for our children, and their safety. I think we should also be praying for the Southern Region with those children as well, and praying that the Southern Region opens soon. If that were the case, the movement would be a lot on the list and so many families would get their children home a lot sooner and to a loving and safe place. Please join us in prayer for those things.
We are pretty certain what genders we will be getting by where we are on the list, so its great for planning, but also not great because now all I want to do is shop!! Haha, but like Kyle says, things will change and I'm going to want something different in a year or so. I have to hold back and wait, so I'm doing my best...
Other than the things above there isn't a whole lot going on with the adoption stuff. It's a slow and steady waiting game. We get excited about the referrals coming through though and watching ourselves move up the list. Its the little things that keep us going. :)
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Like a Kid Again
Last weekend we had Christmas with my mom's side of the family. We did a white elephant gift exchange to have some fun. I was at Target and got a nerf gun, I thought it'd be a big hit, but it really wasn't except with Kyle and I. We had a blast with it, my mom started to join in too and we were laughing so hard at times. My cousin actually won the gift, but we played with it ;) Kyle kept saying I can't believe you bought this for a white elephant but not for me.
So on Monday I had to go out and grab a few things... along with that was 2 nerf guns for my husband and I. I was going to wait awhile to bring them out, but Kyle has been really busy at work and this was the first time all week we could sit down and talk. Instead of talking, we had an all out NERF WAR!!!! :) :) We were laughing, running around, hiding in and behind things. This went on for a good 20 minutes. We had a BLAST! Needless to say, this was the best gift I bought for him and we are having so much fun with it.
We are longing for our kiddos, but we are enjoying the little things in life right now. God is good!
Lots of Love,
The Nerf Champ Chaffee's ;)
So on Monday I had to go out and grab a few things... along with that was 2 nerf guns for my husband and I. I was going to wait awhile to bring them out, but Kyle has been really busy at work and this was the first time all week we could sit down and talk. Instead of talking, we had an all out NERF WAR!!!! :) :) We were laughing, running around, hiding in and behind things. This went on for a good 20 minutes. We had a BLAST! Needless to say, this was the best gift I bought for him and we are having so much fun with it.
We are longing for our kiddos, but we are enjoying the little things in life right now. God is good!
Lots of Love,
The Nerf Champ Chaffee's ;)
Monday, January 9, 2012
Blessed in 2011
Good morning friends!
I'm really not a morning person at all, but I was able to sleep in a little today, okay like an extra 20 min, but still it felt so good. :) Anyway, before I head off to work for this week, which is a full week of work, (whoa) I thought I'd update real quick.
Last year when we sent out our Christmas cards we wrote a note about our year and we sent it with our picture to lots of family and friends. As Christmas was approaching, Kyle and I thought we would skip out on the letter this year, because well it wasn't a great year for us. I completely agreed with this, but then I started thinking about all the ups we had this year too. So I'm going to just write about how blessed we were really are even though it wasn't our best year.
Sadly, we lost 2 grandmothers this year... With Grandma Chaffee we were not expecting it at all, and it was a big shock to everyone. She had been doing so well, looking great and sounding great. It was such a sad Easter last year, but for the first time in probably a long time, all the Chaffee's were together. One of Kyle's uncle and aunt live in Florida, and I actually had never met them, so they came up of course. It was a blessing being together as a family, even though a key component was missing, Grandma. But I know with everything in my heart Grandma was looking down from heaven and was smiling so big to see all of her kids, their spouses, her grandchildren, and her great grandchildren together again. It is still hard for many of us at times, but the Chaffee's still get together and I know that's something Grandma instilled in all of her children. Blessed.
With Grandma Ramseyer ( my step dad's mom) we sadly knew the end was coming. It was hard, but we were able to say our goodbyes and spend our last moments with her. She was such a giving person, with such a big heart. She and her husband knew so many people and they were all touched by their gratitude and their selflessness. Something we all need more of. What great role models to their families. We all have so many fond memories of Grandma and she will be missed everyday, but we are all better people because of her. Blessed.
In 2011 we really wanted to expand our family and get pregnant like everyone else does. It seemed easy, but as time went on I knew something wasn't right. After many people telling me I just needed to relax, and I know I did need to, I went to the Dr. There were lots of visits, and I ended up with 2 surgeries and news that I would probably never be able to conceive. Talk about a rough year... but, if those doors weren't shut like that we wouldn't have started our process of adopting so soon. We always knew we wanted to adopt, but wanted to wait a little while. I couldn't be more excited about going down this path, and I think of our children every single day. Some days are hard, I lose patience, and I get sad that we don't know them yet, but in God's timing we will and we cannot wait!!! BLESSED.
Kyle and I both have great jobs. He works with some absolutely amazing role models. They are all upstanding men who work hard, have strong families, and a lot of them are Christians. What a blessing that is, to work in such an environment when most places and people are the opposite. He gets treated well and has good relationships with many people in his office. I am loving my job too, the kiddos are wonderful. They keep me laughing all the time, they are quirky, funny, and so loving. It is a very tiring job and sometimes frustrating, but my goodness I couldn't imagine not knowing those kiddos. Blessed.
We absolutely love our house. We have been so blessed to be able to keep up with everything that goes on with it, dream up new ideas for our home, and just be content. It's a quaint little cottage looking home, but we couldn't ask for a better place to call home. We also have thee best neighbors. It's amazing how God works that out even if we aren't thinking about it. They are actually going through a lot of the same stuff we are, so we have cried together, had serious conversations, but most of all we laugh together. Blessed.
Lastly, we have the most wonderful supportive family we could have ever dreamed of. I really struggled with the thought of letting down my parents, and Kyle's by not being able to give them a blood related grandchild. I'm sure they all dreamed of it, and I know I did, but no one has said anything about being disappointed. They all say the opposite actually, which is such a freeing feeling. We are so glad that they are all on board, they are just as excited as we are, and that they pray for our future children. Thank you so much! Blessed.
We are blessed in so many other ways, but I don't want to bore you or make this book much longer. Friends, we have rough days, months, and even years, but try to look between the lines and see those blessings. Sometimes looking for those things is harder than getting out of bed in the morning, but when you look for them God will reveal them to you. I have to remind myself of this everyday, because it's not easy and I am by no means great at this. Looking back at 2011 though, I am able to find those blessings, because God has brought me to a new place. :) BLESSED.
I'm really not a morning person at all, but I was able to sleep in a little today, okay like an extra 20 min, but still it felt so good. :) Anyway, before I head off to work for this week, which is a full week of work, (whoa) I thought I'd update real quick.
Last year when we sent out our Christmas cards we wrote a note about our year and we sent it with our picture to lots of family and friends. As Christmas was approaching, Kyle and I thought we would skip out on the letter this year, because well it wasn't a great year for us. I completely agreed with this, but then I started thinking about all the ups we had this year too. So I'm going to just write about how blessed we were really are even though it wasn't our best year.
Sadly, we lost 2 grandmothers this year... With Grandma Chaffee we were not expecting it at all, and it was a big shock to everyone. She had been doing so well, looking great and sounding great. It was such a sad Easter last year, but for the first time in probably a long time, all the Chaffee's were together. One of Kyle's uncle and aunt live in Florida, and I actually had never met them, so they came up of course. It was a blessing being together as a family, even though a key component was missing, Grandma. But I know with everything in my heart Grandma was looking down from heaven and was smiling so big to see all of her kids, their spouses, her grandchildren, and her great grandchildren together again. It is still hard for many of us at times, but the Chaffee's still get together and I know that's something Grandma instilled in all of her children. Blessed.
With Grandma Ramseyer ( my step dad's mom) we sadly knew the end was coming. It was hard, but we were able to say our goodbyes and spend our last moments with her. She was such a giving person, with such a big heart. She and her husband knew so many people and they were all touched by their gratitude and their selflessness. Something we all need more of. What great role models to their families. We all have so many fond memories of Grandma and she will be missed everyday, but we are all better people because of her. Blessed.
In 2011 we really wanted to expand our family and get pregnant like everyone else does. It seemed easy, but as time went on I knew something wasn't right. After many people telling me I just needed to relax, and I know I did need to, I went to the Dr. There were lots of visits, and I ended up with 2 surgeries and news that I would probably never be able to conceive. Talk about a rough year... but, if those doors weren't shut like that we wouldn't have started our process of adopting so soon. We always knew we wanted to adopt, but wanted to wait a little while. I couldn't be more excited about going down this path, and I think of our children every single day. Some days are hard, I lose patience, and I get sad that we don't know them yet, but in God's timing we will and we cannot wait!!! BLESSED.
Kyle and I both have great jobs. He works with some absolutely amazing role models. They are all upstanding men who work hard, have strong families, and a lot of them are Christians. What a blessing that is, to work in such an environment when most places and people are the opposite. He gets treated well and has good relationships with many people in his office. I am loving my job too, the kiddos are wonderful. They keep me laughing all the time, they are quirky, funny, and so loving. It is a very tiring job and sometimes frustrating, but my goodness I couldn't imagine not knowing those kiddos. Blessed.
We absolutely love our house. We have been so blessed to be able to keep up with everything that goes on with it, dream up new ideas for our home, and just be content. It's a quaint little cottage looking home, but we couldn't ask for a better place to call home. We also have thee best neighbors. It's amazing how God works that out even if we aren't thinking about it. They are actually going through a lot of the same stuff we are, so we have cried together, had serious conversations, but most of all we laugh together. Blessed.
Lastly, we have the most wonderful supportive family we could have ever dreamed of. I really struggled with the thought of letting down my parents, and Kyle's by not being able to give them a blood related grandchild. I'm sure they all dreamed of it, and I know I did, but no one has said anything about being disappointed. They all say the opposite actually, which is such a freeing feeling. We are so glad that they are all on board, they are just as excited as we are, and that they pray for our future children. Thank you so much! Blessed.
We are blessed in so many other ways, but I don't want to bore you or make this book much longer. Friends, we have rough days, months, and even years, but try to look between the lines and see those blessings. Sometimes looking for those things is harder than getting out of bed in the morning, but when you look for them God will reveal them to you. I have to remind myself of this everyday, because it's not easy and I am by no means great at this. Looking back at 2011 though, I am able to find those blessings, because God has brought me to a new place. :) BLESSED.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Recovering
As many of you know I had surgery at the beginning of December. I had a much better Dr. this time and she was actually my OBGYN. I went in for a lot of pain on my left side and it turned out to be 2 cysts on my ovary. She had a plan and we scheduled the surgery.
I have to say that this time it was such a better experience!! :) I was so thankful for that too. So just a little side note about the surgery center. I got there super early, and I was very hungry, a nurse came in who actually know from Kokomo to tell me it would be delayed a little because they were out of oxygen in the OR, lol. I wasn't mad at all either because we got a chance to catch up. :) I went in to the OR and I felt so safe and comfortable, I was soothed to sleep and then I woke up crying, lol. Another side note, at my last surgery the nurses were terrible and they had put medicine in my IV before I was even on the table, so I'm pretty sure I fell on the table, what a sight lol!!
The Dr. told Kyle everything went fine and he waited for me to get up. I woke up and it was pretty painful, but I didn't want to take the meds because I didn't want to be sick, so like any normal girl, I cried, haha! The nurses were once again great and so was Kyle. He even fed my jello so I wouldn't get sick. :)
I went home that afternoon and slept until 9, then woke up for short time and went back to sleep. I don't remember most of the night or if I talked to anyone, but it was a great sleep.
Sadly though during the night, my step grandma passed away. She was like my grandma and I loved her dearly. She will be missed by so many but we all love the thought of her dancing with Jesus and spending time with her husband and her family. :) This was a sad time and also a painful one for me, as I had to wear dress clothes that first week of recovery. All is well now though and my incisions are healing well.
This go round the incisions were much higher and they were super glued together. It seemed so odd but I can tell how much better they are healing this time. I went to the Dr. last week or so and she said it was a little more extensive than she was expecting so she wanted to start me on a shot called Lupron Depot. It would medically induce menopause, with all the stuff... I'm going to talk to a nurse more about it tomorrow hopefully, but we are thinking we are going to pass because of the side effects.
We are doing well and finally feeling back to normal which is a really good feeling to say the least!! :)
I hope you all had blessed Christmas and took time to remember the true meaning. We were especially blessed this year and we are so grateful that our family is so supportive of our decisions and we know we wouldn't be here without them all!
I have to say that this time it was such a better experience!! :) I was so thankful for that too. So just a little side note about the surgery center. I got there super early, and I was very hungry, a nurse came in who actually know from Kokomo to tell me it would be delayed a little because they were out of oxygen in the OR, lol. I wasn't mad at all either because we got a chance to catch up. :) I went in to the OR and I felt so safe and comfortable, I was soothed to sleep and then I woke up crying, lol. Another side note, at my last surgery the nurses were terrible and they had put medicine in my IV before I was even on the table, so I'm pretty sure I fell on the table, what a sight lol!!
The Dr. told Kyle everything went fine and he waited for me to get up. I woke up and it was pretty painful, but I didn't want to take the meds because I didn't want to be sick, so like any normal girl, I cried, haha! The nurses were once again great and so was Kyle. He even fed my jello so I wouldn't get sick. :)
I went home that afternoon and slept until 9, then woke up for short time and went back to sleep. I don't remember most of the night or if I talked to anyone, but it was a great sleep.
Sadly though during the night, my step grandma passed away. She was like my grandma and I loved her dearly. She will be missed by so many but we all love the thought of her dancing with Jesus and spending time with her husband and her family. :) This was a sad time and also a painful one for me, as I had to wear dress clothes that first week of recovery. All is well now though and my incisions are healing well.
This go round the incisions were much higher and they were super glued together. It seemed so odd but I can tell how much better they are healing this time. I went to the Dr. last week or so and she said it was a little more extensive than she was expecting so she wanted to start me on a shot called Lupron Depot. It would medically induce menopause, with all the stuff... I'm going to talk to a nurse more about it tomorrow hopefully, but we are thinking we are going to pass because of the side effects.
We are doing well and finally feeling back to normal which is a really good feeling to say the least!! :)
I hope you all had blessed Christmas and took time to remember the true meaning. We were especially blessed this year and we are so grateful that our family is so supportive of our decisions and we know we wouldn't be here without them all!
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